i've been on emotional hiatus for the past few months; heartbreaks and heartaches are a painful commodity to endure and pass through. i've been updating, although sporatically and without any real productiveness, but i've been struggling through writer's block. i can't stand that term, because one, it doesn't clearly define my case, and two, it seems like an excuse to any productivity that can be followed through on, given enough motivation. anyway, i've had a lot of writing material in the mess of my head, but i just can't put it to paper, or rather on to the screen. i've just been disorganized and well, depressed. i'm not going to write any